When I was 20 years old I decided to move to Amsterdam and do a study. To pay the bills I had to take a student job and I succeeded to land my first job. I was so grateful and happy with the opportunity they gave me because I didn’t had any experience. The people at the company I started working believed in me and I felt very comfortable at the office. Unfortunately, my second job led to a bad job experience.
My first job
The first job I had was at a PR agency as an Assistant Account Executive and my task was to maintain websites for various Ministeries. At the time, I did a Media & Communications study which fitted the PR work field perfectly. Alas, I had to quit the study because I messed up. I still regret this, but I was busy with moving during my study and I couldn’t fully focus on school. It was the study of my dreams and quitting really felt like giving up on my dream.
I didn’t want to stop studying and chose to do an event management study. Luckily, I was able to keep my job at the PR agency even though I wasn’t doing a study in communications anymore. After 3 years, I graduated and I had to find a job in the event industry which the company I was working for really understood. They gave me the space to look for another job. But, they also gave me more hours to get more working experience.
The bad job experience
After a year, I found a new job at an event organization. So, it was time for me to leave the company I worked for for almost 5 years. To be honest, I knew the job wasn’t the right one for me but the stubbornness in me took the job. And it didn’t took long for me to realize I quit the job I loved and was really good at for a job that wasn’t for me. I wanted to believe that this was it for me and I did my best so badly but it just didn’t work.
The team I got in was so negative and from the moment I got there I felt that nobody was really believing in me. As a person with a disability you have to prove yourself even more to other people because most of the human beings think something is wrong with you intellectual which isn’t always the case. And that’s what almost everyone made me feel like in my team, like I wasn’t good enough and that I wasn’t capable of anything. It was an industry I never worked in and didn’t had any experience with. No one seemed to understand me. Besides, there was so much dissatisfaction under the co-works about how everything was going in the company which didn’t contribute to the work atmosphere.
A few months later I realized that this job was also too boring and too administrative for me. I just missed being creative and free in my role.
I had a fixed-term contract of 6 months and at the end of the term my manager and I both decided to not renew the contract. I felt so relieved because the last 2 months I went to the office with so much reluctance. Sometimes, almost crying but I decided to not give up. I’ve never felt so unhappy and undervalued in my work life.
Finding value in the bad job experience
At first, I was so angry with the people working there and being so sour towards me. The longer I was working there the more insecure I got because I couldn’t do anything right. I started to think that I would never be enough at any job or company. It took me weeks to actually see the lessons I learned in those 6 months.
Even though, I already knew this but the first thing that I learned is that money isn’t everything. One of the reasons I took the job was because it was paying me more than my previous job. In the future I’m not going to be tempted by a big salary. I just want to do what I love to do and as long as it makes me able to pay the bills I’m happy.
The second thing I learned is that when I ask questions during a job interview about certain stuff and don’t get clear answers, something’s really off in the company. And last but not least, is that I know what I don’t want in a job. It was a very administrative job where I had contact with costumers by phone most of the time. That’s obviously not what I want and like to do. I’m more of a creative person and introvert who doesn’t like to be on the phone 90% of the day.
How to move forward
Do feel like you’re failing a job? Are you being tormented by a co-worker? Doesn’t your boss believe in you? This happens all the time and it’s not you! It takes time to move forward and let go of these painful events.
I think the best revenge is to live well. So, land your dream job, go out, have fun and live your best life. Don’t keep hanging on the bad memories because the only person you’re hurting is yourself.
Have you ever had a bad job experience? How did you cope with it? Let me know in the comments!
‘till next time!
~ Ashley Sharon